k so- hair coloring.

idk if you know this, i know old readers do but i doubt any of them are still alive.
rofl
but i went from a blonde to a dark dark dark red violet brown [mostly brown when it was faded]
and i hated it so badly

so now i am a bright red with an orange tint.
i hate it, not as much, but i do.
my hair stylist said it would be better for me to just Manic Panic it rather than have her dye it because he dyes are more damaging than something like Manic Panic would be.
so when this fades, i'm Manic Panic-ing it up.
yup

pix for now.

SORRY I SUCK SO MUCH -flails-

everything has been happening so fast, or so slow, i can't keep track of the days, let alone hours that i'm awake.
i lose a few days, then one passes that feels like a week.
everything has just been /so/ stressful.
and because of it my blog suffered.
; ~~ ;

i will be starting this one, but Ejote's blog is finished.
i missed too many weeks to feel okay doing it still.
i'll post about her sometimes, but she's all grown up and i don't think her fur is getting any longer.
we're re-potty training her right now.
and we made a hilarious ghetto leash because i can't find her old one.
i'd show pix but i don't have my cord that connects my phone to my laptop.

i will explain that now~

i am a very easily angered girl, annoyed, frustrated, i just get in bad moods so easy.
especially in the winter.
i was diagnosed with depression in 7th grade, anxiety in 10th, and S.A.D in 9th.
[out of order, lol]
S.A.D stands for two things that i know of,
social anxiety disorder, which i believe i have over come.
and seasonal affected disorder.
i most certainly have the latter.

i get /very/ moody in the winter and sometimes unpredictable.
i throw huge tantrums from time to time and get super angry over the smallest things.
it's difficult to be around me.
most of my relationships i have had ended in the winter when i became super cunt.

Aoi has seen me at my worst and has agreed to stay with me if i try harder not to be so unreasonable.
Dx

uhm, let's see. where was i.
oh, right.
S.A.D
i became fed up living in my mothers basement, she told me she would try to help me move out on my own. but the money flow isn't flowing our way right now so i was told i'd have to wait or get a job and pay for it myself.
[i plan on getting a job, but i want to /save/ money, not spend it on an apartment]
i was enraged.

but Aoi, the more level headed [and lazier~] of the two of us thought to move in the Beach House.
we own a home out near Grand Haven, it's in Ferrysburg.
and during the winter it just sits there.
we're trying to sell it, but it's not going anywhere. and during the summer we rent it out.
[no one comes to MI in the winter x3]

i didn't like the idea, i grew up here somewhat. but it was either this or basement. so i agreed.

we left with little plan or preparation. as is how we do everything and here we are.

i will take pictures of our home once /everything/ is set up how we want it.
i'm currently in what is called the "Blue Room",
a room on the second floor that was once a toy room for my brother and i.
my bedroom is not acceptable because it doesn't have MY bedframe. and that is the only bed i will sleep in.
i'm a cute brat.

hopefully we'll find someone to help us move within the next few weeks.
:C

we've unpacked all we can for now.
going back to Grand Rapids tomorrow to get more things we forgot.
:3

that's all i can think of for now.

to break it down as simply as possible~

i took all my GED tests, passed all my tests first try.
got 500 or above on each test.
highest was 570 on science.
[500 is the average score for high school graduates <3]

went to LA, came back. two day train trip. actually kind of fun.

and have been living with my best friend, Aoi, ever since.
it's been really fun. different. we had to stay awake for around 40+ hours to switch our schedules from waking up at 9-11pm to waking up at like 8am-12pm

however, we might be fucking ourselves over again.
aunt flo is visiting so i have been sleeping all day. plus i slept in way too much.
and he stays up until around 5am every night.

silly us.

we've done too many things to talk about them all. and i don't know how to pick out which to post about.
so sorry <333

i will say, a friend of my fathers said he would hire me.
and he has not hired me yet.
it's been like 2-3 weeks.
i'm mad.

i will also say, i saw Cirque de[du?] Symphony and it was really-really good.
i didn't like the homoerotic at the end. and it's not any where near as good as real Cirque shows [i saw La Nuba[sp?]] but it was most certainly worth going.
:3

going to The Nutcracker tomorrow, maybe, if i feel up to it, and then Cinderella on saturday?
so more posts soon.

wow, how long has it been?

a great long time, no? yes.
very much long time.

i will start posting again as i get back into using a computer. i just got it back today.
a lot has happened, way too much for my liking.
i am a simple girl.
it has not been a simply life lately.

so hold on- a few more days.
not that anyone still cares about this anymore.
^OO^