people absolutely disgust me.

i had not felt so ashamed to be a human in a /long/ time.
but this- i wanted to scream.


do not see what i mean?

let us look closer.




i hope every one of those scientist children drinks gasoline.
^OO^

WTF nail update

the WTF nail update.
ahahah, i did something /weird/

first off, this is what my nails look like when the polish is removed.
or most of it, the grey tint is not there when they are fully cleaned. my nail polish remover is weak.



second, this is how the nail that had broken off is healing, or healed. i put a false nail over it. the | shows where the real nail is.


this is what it looked like when it was torn off, back in September.
the false nail was not the reason my nail was torn off, btw. it was because i was working in an animal shelter and being /really/ rough with my hands.





and lastly,
this is what i did to my nails.
i just kind... went.
insane.
they are really ugly, IMO. like, not ugly, but DANG
who the heck would do this?
one hand


both hands


if you /want/ to know how i did this, i will explain

Products :
black nail polish,
pink sparkle nail polish,
white sparkle nail polish [it is the blue looking sparkles]
top coat,
silver sparkle design brush polish

two coats of the clear coat on your nails,
followed by two coats of black.
a single coat of the pink sparkles.
then cover a small bit with the black nail polish again.
fill in the black you just made with the white sparkles.
and outline the border.
then another two coats of clear.
:3
really easy.
really weird.
i guess they would be cool for like, rave/new years party?

once these are dry i am going to bed.
ta~

i swear every time i want to start this blog again-

i die.
i just recovered from the flu.
on December 31 i went to Grand Rapids to see my mom for a bit, then i came home. i woke up the next morning at like, early, and was okay-ish. but still not the best.
the next day- oh my my my i died.
i was simply unable to move.
and from then January 1st[2nd really] to January 5th[today] i was dead.
i laid on a futon, with not soft pillows at all, for days.
now that i realize the dates, it wasn't actually that long. but when you lay in the same spot falling asleep for a few hours at a time it seems like you're there forever.

i threw up every once and awhile,
and then when i finally felt well enough to shower- i threw up again.
RIGHT AFTER I SHOWERED
what a waste of clean.

i looked terrible, i still do.
but w/e i need to redye my hair.
i soaked in the shower so i bled like a rotting corpse.

w/e i'm better now, i better be able to go out and do things tomorrow or i am not going to be a happy Charlotte.
:x

there are dear outside my house, i want to ride them.
i want to ride horses.
-bounces-