yesterday was supposed to kick start /everything/

but it turned out to be one the worst days i have had in a really long time.

it started out fine, Aoi and i were late getting into GR but it did not really matter.
we had Burger King and enjoyed our time together because we have not been spending much of that lately.

i dropped him off at my mothers home so i could go do the things i needed to get done.
i did my nails, bought the stuff i needed for my hair and went to the post office.
and of course, my extensions had not arrived.
i was pissed.
because i do not go into GR that often and now i have to go again.
[well i have to anyway, you will see]
but Aoi's shirt had so i was not that angry.

by then it was too late for me to do my own hair so i just took Aoi to Becky's
[even though it is not really Becky's anymore. it is now managed by a girl name Terra. it is just a Hair Masters, btw]
on the way i told him how my extensions had not come and i was upset- and he got a little mad because i had not even told him i bought extensions. he hates hair extensions.
but we got over it because we love each other and that is just how true friends are.

after we got his hair done i did mine and we planned to go to the mall.
nope.

my muffler falls off at one end.
so i had to drive with it dragging for half an hour from Becky's to my mothers.
i have had anxiety about driving my entire life, i cannot drive past a truck or behind one without my heart racing. how do you think a broken and dragging muffler makes me feel?
[it was like 6pm right then]

so i called my mother to ask her what to do and she told me to call the repair shop.
all the repair men left at 6.

so i do the only thing i know to do and call my friend, who helps me put the muffler back on well enough that it wont drag. but the sound drove me to tears.

my mother said she would not come home to help me and was going to go to a basketball game instead.
at the time i did not really care- i knew she would help me when she got home.
so Aoi and i went to a movie with my friend.

we went to Daybreakers
it was terrible.

anyway, after my friend dropped Aoi and i off back at my mothers i went to talk to her.

she refused to help me.
it was 12am now.

all i asked was that i barrow her car for the night, not even a day, so i could feed my dog.
[imagine being locked in a room without reason and not being fed for 24 hours. that is what happened to my dog.]

i told her i would take her car out, then come back in the morning so she could go to work and everything. i just needed to get out there that night.

she refused.

[take note she bought a new car right after telling me i could not have a new USED car. because mine is "safe, well maintained, and reliable". this is the second repair i have NEEDED since i started using it. the first one cost nearly or over one thousand dollars. i do not remember which :3]

she told me to drive 45 minutes to Ferrysburg and back the next day-
instead of letting me take her car to Ferrysburg, get a little sleep, come back in the morning and let her go to work WITH HER CAR[not asking her to use mine even] and do what she needed to do then take my car to the shop and get it fixed.
[45 each way. more like 60 at how slow i did drive when i had to]
i just needed it for the night. literally the night.

i ended up leaving and attempting to drive my car and ended up in near tears on the road.
i knew i could not drive it so i drove as slow as physically possible to my fathers house.

not only did he let me barrow his car, but he got mine fixed.
i am going to pick it up later today.

i have always thought my dad was lazy and irresponsible, but at least he is there for me when i really need it.

by the time i got home it was 3:30am.

i have been going to bed at 9-11pm lately.

-shakes head-

so i will post my tutorial on nails either later today or tomorrow.
i just wanted to bitch to someone.

^OO^