i might start doing a "what i wore" everyday thing

but not really because it is usually a sweatshirt and big hair.
which you have seen all ready.
ahahaha

idk, i am so boring with how i dress.
i want to wear my gothic shit every day, but i cannot.
it just is not possible when i go to a shelter every day, or the grocery store.
it takes like an extra 30 minutes to put on an entire gothic outfit.
with the petticoat and all the buttons and stuff.
if i go out for a full day, yeah, but not with how little i go out right now.

this is my "going to the grocery store" outfit.


[i just resized the photo, it should get smaller soon]

my cell phone

i tried to show my phone charms and the front, but i failed
ahahah





i like the front way more than the back, but no one ever sees the front.
how annoying.
i might bedazzle the back. full gem`ed out.

should i? vote above.

people are so damn pathetic

always hating on me when they do not even know anything except a name and a face-
my face brings hate and their hate keeps me young.
i guess i should say thank you.

but then they look at my words and realize-
fuck- i hate things about her that she does not do. never has.

i like it when people admit their mistakes.

"You are a really intriguing individual. I don't quite understand you. At first, I thought I hated you. But after a while, I've been really interested in your opinion on things.
I'm still not sure how I feel about you, but I'm definitely drawn to your posts.

- Anonymous"

but not when they are little cunts and do not leave their name.

today i took the dog to the vet. i cleaned her ear mites, gave her a dose of power pink medication,
and made her chicken and rice to help her stool thicken.
i really like taking care of animals.

okay soooooooooo fuck my hair

the color is way better now, but it feels like puddy when it is wet, and falls out and breaks and ew.
|:

i hate what bleaching does, like 3 weeks from now it will be better.
i hope.
:CCC

but w/e it is better than red all over my nails and orange hair.
^OO^

pix up later today when i take puppy to the animal doctor.
her shit has been liquid, so i am going to get her checked out.

uhm, what else.
idk.
nothing?
:3

oh, wait...
nope.
idk.
bye.

oh, right. my nail design.
and Alicel's nail design.
[Aoi has not decided on one for him yet]
super cute right now.
pix when i go out, just like hair.


i want a magic button that i press and my hair grows 8 inches, yesplz

i am obsessed

let us start with this, my new phone case came.
yay~
it came in like- half a day, holy shit. fast eBay seller ships fast.


i like it more- it is not plastic- looks less cheap.
i will add charm things soon.

next- i went to get the thing from the post office.
what was it? 30$ worth of nail art stuff.
O w O

[in the box i put all my nail art stuff in]

[out of the box]

what do i have- you ask?
everything.
not really, i all ready know more stuff i want.... NEED
Dx

here is a quick list of some stuff i have -
nail glitter in MANY colors
many colors/sizes of nail gems [and heart shapped ones in black, and pink]
many colors of nail pearls [and heart shapped ones, as well as bow shape in pink and white]
nail beads in silver and gold
nail art brushes, you can see the colors
and nail art glitter, meaning it is in shappes and stuff. like stars, hearts, just little lines. like sparkle confetti? yeah sure, in gold and silver.
[they are what is in the tubes]

i will open my shop soon- as soon as i figure out a way to paint the fake nails without them moving/getting paint all over my fingers.
so we will see.
i will charge a full 1$ for each rose on the nail- because they only come 4 of each color to the wheel and i love them i do not want to give them away
Dx

i need to clean.
do not want to.
not going to GPKISM, i am not allowed to leave state unless i ask the court and i doubt they will let me leave with less than one day of notice.
._____________.

do not break the law, kitties~

and last but not least~
my current nail design.

Aoi Phantomhive created this nail design
he is so good

and guess what? my nail is grown back.
YESSSSSSSS
i was really scared because i had to get a new set and i shut my eyes when she took off my pinkie nail.
i was like "oma it is going to rip off again."
but NO
all back
ayayayayyayyayaya~

girls in tophats are stupid as hell.

i hate when i see a girl in a top hat, they look like ugly idiots.
i want to snatch it off their head and stomp it to the ground.

top hats were made for men, they are manly accessories.
not ladies.
even mini-top hats are a big fat NO.
i cannot believe all you people are saying they are cute.
uhg.

if i ever see any girl wearing a top hat i lose accessory respect for her.
unless she is cross-playing.

even i would not wear a Moitie top hat with Lolita.
i would give it to Aoi, without hesitation.


but i look cute in Aoi's tophat.
i guess when you are as pretty as me you can do anything.
:3
i would never wear it out, only in the hotel room.
[this was in the hotel room at Ohayocon, before we went out on Friday]

IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT

to anyone who thinks they matter to me~

you do not.

i do not care about your thoughts- flat out- that is all there is to it.

i do not think about anyone but my dearest Aoi.

it must suck to be you.

^OO^

do not get me wrong, we can be friends, and i can care about you. but your opinion is invalid in my life. and you are always replaceable.

everyone leaves my life at some point, besides Aoi.

i have never met anyone besides who i actually was upset when they left me, or i left them.

[mainly directed at the idiot who posted in my crush tag, but sorry everyone. my love is reserved for ONE person. for ever and always <3]

"You are extremely annoying, and after seeing you for one day I think it is safe to say that I hate you.

- Someone Important"

hate makes me famous, though.

so keep it coming.

<333

!|!|! also !|!|!

i am making Aoi's valentines day present this week,

we are officially engaged.  and are in the process of planning our dream wedding.

i have other posts i am making soon but because i do not have my phone cord to upload my pix it will wait until tomorrow.

i do have my phone back though.

c:

mom is leaving for Hawaii tomorrow, i have to drop her off.

i get my car back next week. driving hers until she comes home.

really hope i can go to GPKISM, it would make this month not boring.

uhm- what else. idk. bye.

Gothic Oshare Kei

Oshare Kei :

what is it?

Ohshare Kei is a Japanese fashion based on being cute, vibrant, colorful and adorable. but it is no where near as annoying as Decora.

it is also a music genre, unlike most VK bands Oshare Kei bands sing about positive messages with upbeat tunes and bright PVs. 

what it is not?

Lolita, Visual Kei, etc. Oshare Kei is its own style. do not call Oshare Kei people VK, they are a sub-version, do not call them Lolita, they are not. if they claim a Oshare Kei is Lolita they are just Ita's.

[Ita, coming from the Japanese word Itai meaning similar to "ouch" basically means "false Lolita" "bad Lolita" "wannabe Lolita" etc. i also noticed good Lolitas are called "Loli" and bad Lolita are called "ita". Loli-ita =Loliita - 1 i and it is Lolita but- that could just be a coincidence. i have never met anyone else who said that meant anything]

anyway, i love the Oshare Kei style. but i am just not the type of person who wears bright and colorful things- so i made my own style.

Gothic Oshare Kei.

it is just and fun and adorable and Oshare kei, just with a black and white [sometimes red or purple too. dark colors people!] color combination as well.

[i also wear "Sweet Gothic Lolita" meaning i buy outfits that were made for sweet but get them made in black and white :3]

here are a couple of my outfits, i only wore Gothic Oshare Kei to Ohayocon if you saw me.

except on Saturday before the rave. then i was in Moi-meme-Moitie, the ONLY EGL brand.

all other brands that claim to be EGL are pieces of shit- and i hope Mana barfs on them.

PIX

[absolute Gothic Oshare Kei]

[my faces are not posed in most of these so i blacked them out~]

[toned down but still in the fashion range]

that skirt needs some puff under it.

Dx

Dolly Eye Grey circle lenses review and FQ&A

feel free to ask me questions here too.
:3

this is what my contacts look like, both the grey and green.
btw.



and the outfit i was wearing in the video.



without circle lenses


with


what they look like in the case

new nail tutorial tomorrow! [and old nail designs]

i am going to make a new tutorial tomorrow, because these nails keep turning pink.
i just dyed my hair a deeper red, and i tangle my hands in my hair when i sleep. so they keep turning pink.
so annoying!

so i just thought i would let you know and show you some of my old designs.
[i have had a lot but my computers hard drive was wiped clean so i only have pix 2 of my old designs :C]


trying to replicate this design is what actually taught me the french tip trick.
i accidentally made one too thick and was too lazy to fix it.
:3


my current design, you can kind of see the pink tint.


a really old design, one of my nails fell off at the shelter. it was not because of the fake nail, it was because i was being way to rough with them. do not do hard labor with nails this long.


ALL TAKEN WITH MY PHONE IN BAD LIGHTING
sorry for the awful quality.
:C

SORRY I SUCK SO MUCH -flails-

everything has been happening so fast, or so slow, i can't keep track of the days, let alone hours that i'm awake.
i lose a few days, then one passes that feels like a week.
everything has just been /so/ stressful.
and because of it my blog suffered.
; ~~ ;

i will be starting this one, but Ejote's blog is finished.
i missed too many weeks to feel okay doing it still.
i'll post about her sometimes, but she's all grown up and i don't think her fur is getting any longer.
we're re-potty training her right now.
and we made a hilarious ghetto leash because i can't find her old one.
i'd show pix but i don't have my cord that connects my phone to my laptop.

i will explain that now~

i am a very easily angered girl, annoyed, frustrated, i just get in bad moods so easy.
especially in the winter.
i was diagnosed with depression in 7th grade, anxiety in 10th, and S.A.D in 9th.
[out of order, lol]
S.A.D stands for two things that i know of,
social anxiety disorder, which i believe i have over come.
and seasonal affected disorder.
i most certainly have the latter.

i get /very/ moody in the winter and sometimes unpredictable.
i throw huge tantrums from time to time and get super angry over the smallest things.
it's difficult to be around me.
most of my relationships i have had ended in the winter when i became super cunt.

Aoi has seen me at my worst and has agreed to stay with me if i try harder not to be so unreasonable.
Dx

uhm, let's see. where was i.
oh, right.
S.A.D
i became fed up living in my mothers basement, she told me she would try to help me move out on my own. but the money flow isn't flowing our way right now so i was told i'd have to wait or get a job and pay for it myself.
[i plan on getting a job, but i want to /save/ money, not spend it on an apartment]
i was enraged.

but Aoi, the more level headed [and lazier~] of the two of us thought to move in the Beach House.
we own a home out near Grand Haven, it's in Ferrysburg.
and during the winter it just sits there.
we're trying to sell it, but it's not going anywhere. and during the summer we rent it out.
[no one comes to MI in the winter x3]

i didn't like the idea, i grew up here somewhat. but it was either this or basement. so i agreed.

we left with little plan or preparation. as is how we do everything and here we are.

i will take pictures of our home once /everything/ is set up how we want it.
i'm currently in what is called the "Blue Room",
a room on the second floor that was once a toy room for my brother and i.
my bedroom is not acceptable because it doesn't have MY bedframe. and that is the only bed i will sleep in.
i'm a cute brat.

hopefully we'll find someone to help us move within the next few weeks.
:C

we've unpacked all we can for now.
going back to Grand Rapids tomorrow to get more things we forgot.
:3

that's all i can think of for now.