waxing, a word that by itself strikes fear into the heart of most women and men, even those who have undergone the melted pleasure.
but truly, i find it to be enjoyable and tingly. i always love the feeling of "freshness" after i get my eyebrows waxed.
today i got a pedicure with my mother, i also had my eyebrows waxed. a normal thing for me to do. once every 2/4 weeks. i pluck at home, but i'm not very good. i always end up thinning my eyebrows out even more.
but i did something today i've never done, i waxed my upper lip. i have always been worried about it, i have dark hair naturally. eyebrows, arm hair, leg hair, stomach hair even. and of course, a stash.
though it wasn't so noticeable that i'd ever plucked or photoshopped it out it was noticeable to me.
and the woman who waxed my eyebrows because she suggested it.
Dx
personally, i don't find waxing to hurt. i pluck my legs if i miss a hair or two shaving, and it doesn't hurt. i have waxed my eyebrows off fully to draw them on for a makeup thing i was trying[i'm not good at that] and obvi i wax my brows all the time.
i'm excited to see what leg waxing feels like, i'm told by people who have done it it's not so bad.
but my mom, who is terrified of the idea, says i'll most likely cry.
x3 that'll be up tuesday~
and i promise i'll actually get pix.
now, here is how waxing works. depending on where you go it will vary slightly. but not much.
they cover your eyebrows in a fine white powder, idk what it is. most likely baby powder really. to protect the skin so the wax doesn't pull it off. but it will still irritate your skin some~
followed by... the wax. it's hot to the touch but not burning, they should touch/blow on it to make sure of this.
then a thin piece of cloth on top of the wax and it's pulled off in the opposite direction of how your hair grows.
repeat until eyebrows are done.
after it's finished they put oil on your forehead to restore moisture.
or where ever on your face you had waxed.
:3
ta-da all done.
now, as far as my facial waxing tips go-
don't go if you have acne on where you want waxed.
don't wear makeup, you do tear up a little.
don't tense your face, relax.
keep your eyes closed!
i also know, from reading, that if your getting your bikini/brazilian done NOT to go the week before or after your period. you are more sensitive then.
x3
Pedicures-
no pictures because i think feet are super ugly and i don't know no one to see mine.
i got them painted a soft pink color, everything about me is black except my toe nails. ahahahaha!
they start by removing the cuticles, your feet soak for a few minutes, followed by a cuticle oil then they use a special tool to cut them off. [i might be out of order here]they then exfoliate your legs with a very abrasive exfoliating salt, do NOT shave your legs before you go. it can burn- really bad. first hand experience~ and don't feel bad if your leg hair is really long, the asians wont judge.
[again, asian salon only. they're the best and care for your feets <333]
they use a very hard sponge on your feet to exfoliate them, with a moisturizing cream. it does tickle, try not to move.
:3
they then use just lotion on your entire leg and then clean off your toes and paint. base coat, two coats of color, and a top coat.
this lasts months, if you're not rough with your feet[wear close toes shoes mostly]
that's about it, pedicures are a great way to relax.
i love them.
i don't get them often because i never show my feet in public anyway.
only when they're really ugly.
i'd just like to add, to all you girls out there with hairy bods- don't be ashamed.
i shave my toes, legs, [cough] privets, stomach, arms, arm pits, and my fingers.
i hate hair, i hate how it looks, and feel, so i just shave it.
who cares.
no one is all that pretty under their makeup [okay, i am ^OO^] but no one needs to know that.
don't hide your "flaws" embrace them. make them beautiful.
and remember, nothing is more beautiful than a confident woman.
[but cocky girls get the boot]
calendar
oct ??? - GED testing
oct 13 - leg waxing
oct ??? - halloween shopping
oct ??? - wig shopping
oct 29 - Anime Convention youmacon
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
i'm sorry
i have nothing to post, i can't think of anything.
my days are boring and i'm just waiting for the future.
i'm getting my legs waxed soon, i'm getting new circle lenses soon, i'm getting a pedicure soon, and idk other things that are happening like later this week/couple of weeks.
so i will post about that when it happens.
but what to post now?
idk.
request here, and i'll write what you want~
my days are boring and i'm just waiting for the future.
i'm getting my legs waxed soon, i'm getting new circle lenses soon, i'm getting a pedicure soon, and idk other things that are happening like later this week/couple of weeks.
so i will post about that when it happens.
but what to post now?
idk.
request here, and i'll write what you want~
Monday, October 5, 2009
my stay in a adolescent mental hospital
i never really thought to post this- but it was requested. so here it is~
for 3 days, 72 hours, i was in Forest View. a hospital for adults and adolescents, though the two are separated. as well girls and boys are separated in their "wings".
when i went in it was to decide if i still was depressed. because my mom was worried and wanted me to have an evaluation, i did not know there was any chance of me becoming inpatient. i spoke with a woman who didn't listen to me, and took everything i said as if it was still affecting me. the things i told her, and i told her at the time, were apart of my past. she just wanted my history with depression. i also told her about my weight loss, and i didn't know how long i'd been losing weight so i told her that i wasn't sure. but it was over the last six months to a year.
they took it to an extreme and decided i was a threat to myself. i was placed inpatient that moment.
they didn't let me talk to my mother, and made her leave, because i had a panic attack and started yelling. i didn't think they could hear- i wouldn't yell at my mom in public. or in privet unless she'd really fucked up. and she did. she listened to "professionals" tell her what happened in my life even though she had NEVER heard of ANYTHING they told her. and she damn well knows i tell her everything. except when i break rules- but i tell her soon after. now i tell her right away because lying isn't worth anything.
anyway, they didn't allow me to go home and get my things, they took my picture and strip searched me so that they knew i wasn't trying to smuggle anything in.
then they lead me to my room. the rooms are awful, the mattresses are about two inches thick. if that. they have one hard pillow, plain white sheets and tiny thin "blanket". two beds to a room, a desk, a closet, and side tables for each bed. that's all.
they don't allow many different things, no electronics, no razors of course, no flat irons or hair driers, no hair gel or styling products, no makeup. you can have a tooth brush, tooth paste, shampoo and conditioner. also, no shoes except slippers, no shoe laces, no strings to tighten your pajama pants or hoods, basically, you're treated the same as they treat you in a prison.
i cried for the rest of the day, never left my room, and tried to get over my panic attack. i hadn't had suicidal thoughts in months. but the fact that i was abandoned by the only person i had IRL made me want to kill myself. seems like a helpful environment, no?
i was finally able to fall asleep- but woke up and had another panic attack. trying not to scream cry i sobbed in as close to silence as i could. and you know what i was told? to shut up. they told me "you're not the only one here, shut up. people are trying to sleep."
they are very kind there.
the next day i woke up and went to the in room dining, because i hadn't been cleared for lunch room dining yet. they fed us those breakfast patty things like from mcdonalds. with egg and a patty in like a biscuit. but much more greasy.
i told them i couldn't stomach this, because it was too greasy. and asked if i could have cereal and SKIM milk instead. i can't stomach 2%. they told me it wasn't greasy, that it was very healthy. i showed them a napkin i dabbed on it covered in grease. they told me "tough shit, no breakfast. you have to eat what we give you because you're not cleared for anything else."
remember, i was there for anorexia.
i didn't get breakfast.
about half an hour later they tried to get me to drink Ensure. i have a very sensitive gag reflex, i gag at just about everything. i can hardly eat yogurt with fruit in it because it's all chunky and disgusting. so i told them it wasn't going to work, they again told me "tough shit" but this time it was the Ensure or they force fed me. i stood right in front of them, took a sit, and choked.
they let me throw it away.
then at snake time they gave me a double dose, two bran muffins and a milk carton. 2%. i told them i can only drink skim. and you know what? THEY FINALLY GAVE IN.
i got skim.
i ate it with out any words.
i met with the dietitian and doctor then. they said i was cleared for lunch room dining, but if i skipped any meals i would have to go back to the in room dining. i had no complaints, i knew if i wanted out i had to play by their rules.
i was also prescribed Cymbalta and Seriquil. depression and anxiety medication. one is basically just to help me sleep.
it was dinner time now, and i shoveled down the disgusting greasy pasta like everyone else. except the other people seemed to /enjoy/ it. everyone was looking at me, i could hear them talk about me as i sat in my room and they had "free time" and it just annoyed me.
this day, the first day technically, i awoke feeling very nauseous. i gave credit to the grease. i ended up passing out on the floor walking to the lunch room for breakfast. they told me it was the medication, and it was, i still feel dizzy often on it. but i have only almost passed out one other time. and only because i missed a dose.
i socialized a lot, put on the biggest smile i could, and did everything and ate everything i was told to.
it was a terrible time, but no one could tell that i felt that way.
what got me through it the most was that i spent free time writing to my best and still my only real friend.
i love my Aoi~
the next day i had my room mates switched, from another girl named Samantha B to an anime nerd. i got along with her very well. it wasn't exactly the next day when she came, it was that night.
i woke up to the sound of a girl crying, i look over to the window and see a figure slumped under it balling her eyes out.
i thought it was the girl from the room next to me, it wasn't. it was a new girl.
she had also been dragged away from her mom- but she didn't even have a hissy fit when it happened. they just dragged her in there.
and you'll never guess what they did when they heard her crying.
they yelled at both of us to go to bed or she'd be tranquilized.
we went to bed. she tried her best to be quiet.
i was pretty much in with everyone by the second day. i acted like i was happy and during every therapy session i just said i wasn't depressed. because i wasn't i didn't feel upset, i didn't feel suicidal. just mad at my mom for sticking me there. like i said- i hadn't had unpleasant thoughts in months. and i still haven't. i just get a little upset every once in awhile. my mom thought i was depressed because i sit in my room 24/7 and never go out and i don't have any friends IRL and the only time i talked to her was when i was having drama with my ex-girlfriend and was all "i hate lifeeeee" which is understandable.
but i am not depressed, i am just BORED.
[sure i may have depression but i'm not depressed. make sense?]
later that day my mom came, and we talked, it's called a family session. we laughed and hugged like everything was normal. i told her the deets about what the drama was going down in the hospital. how i'd been hit on multiple times. how fucked up some of the people were. how bad i felt for them. how disappointed i was in this generation. and after that it was pretty much set in stone i was going home very soon- but i was really upset when it wasn't that day.
a boy had gotten released the day before, and he'd left me his phone number and AIM. i never contacted him when i left, i never would. he was a man whore and it really grossed me out.
anyway~ the day i left, the third day, i woke up really upset. thinking "i might actually be here for a week." but come lunch time i was leaving. it was over. i had been acting- and honestly felt- like nothing was wrong. the terms of my release was that i attend counseling and take my medication.
being admitted and released in 3 days is a pretty big feet, i think. most the people there were there for a week to four at a time.
SO FUCK YOU HOSPITAL.
:3333
when i went to the shrink she laughed, saying i didn't need anything. the only issue i had was not talking to my mother enough- and she was right. mom and i talked, and we're on a great level now. so i guess i'm glad that this experience gave me that.
she's my favorite mom, i wouldn't trade her for anything. even though she messes up sometimes. i do to.
no one is perfect.
basically, the people that were there that i got to know were like this.
one very young girl- who was given up by her parents because she was too difficult. an anorexic child with many behavioral problems. but the thing is, if you just let her do what she wanted she was fine. not like- let her beat people up, but let her bring her teddy bear with her, and give her attention when she wanted it she would be FINE. or if you just got her attention on something else than whatever she was doing wrong- totally fine. she was an absolute sweetheart. but she responded so bad to negative speak that the "experts" gave her that they had to move all of us to a separate room and tranquilize her. she was out for over 16 hours. i was very angry.
a typical "i'm so hxc" teenager. she's bi, she's dating a 20+ year old even though she's only 14, she's had sex, she's attempted suicide, she loves metal, and guess what?! she cuts her own hair~ black clothes, cut marks, what a wonderfully unique person she is. whenever i talked to her i wanted to smack her. she had no problems other than wanting to have problem. i hate people like her.
this one boy, i felt very bad for, he has a genetic problem where his body ages much faster than it should. he'll be dead by 30, because he ages so fast. he was only like 16, he could have been 20-30. he has a child, and works so hard to not be depressed. but he is. i felt so bad. he was so strong but not strong enough. :c
uhm, those were the only interesting people. the rest really kept to themselves or their problems were common ones that aren;t worth mentioning because i don't even remember them.
i must say, i miss the one girl who came in. she was just like me- in a way- not as pretty- but she and i were similar. i hope she got out soon. because all she did was make an empty threat to her mother to get her to understand her feelings were real.
idk i do it a lot, or i did. not anymore.
questions? ask.
for 3 days, 72 hours, i was in Forest View. a hospital for adults and adolescents, though the two are separated. as well girls and boys are separated in their "wings".
when i went in it was to decide if i still was depressed. because my mom was worried and wanted me to have an evaluation, i did not know there was any chance of me becoming inpatient. i spoke with a woman who didn't listen to me, and took everything i said as if it was still affecting me. the things i told her, and i told her at the time, were apart of my past. she just wanted my history with depression. i also told her about my weight loss, and i didn't know how long i'd been losing weight so i told her that i wasn't sure. but it was over the last six months to a year.
they took it to an extreme and decided i was a threat to myself. i was placed inpatient that moment.
they didn't let me talk to my mother, and made her leave, because i had a panic attack and started yelling. i didn't think they could hear- i wouldn't yell at my mom in public. or in privet unless she'd really fucked up. and she did. she listened to "professionals" tell her what happened in my life even though she had NEVER heard of ANYTHING they told her. and she damn well knows i tell her everything. except when i break rules- but i tell her soon after. now i tell her right away because lying isn't worth anything.
anyway, they didn't allow me to go home and get my things, they took my picture and strip searched me so that they knew i wasn't trying to smuggle anything in.
then they lead me to my room. the rooms are awful, the mattresses are about two inches thick. if that. they have one hard pillow, plain white sheets and tiny thin "blanket". two beds to a room, a desk, a closet, and side tables for each bed. that's all.
they don't allow many different things, no electronics, no razors of course, no flat irons or hair driers, no hair gel or styling products, no makeup. you can have a tooth brush, tooth paste, shampoo and conditioner. also, no shoes except slippers, no shoe laces, no strings to tighten your pajama pants or hoods, basically, you're treated the same as they treat you in a prison.
i cried for the rest of the day, never left my room, and tried to get over my panic attack. i hadn't had suicidal thoughts in months. but the fact that i was abandoned by the only person i had IRL made me want to kill myself. seems like a helpful environment, no?
i was finally able to fall asleep- but woke up and had another panic attack. trying not to scream cry i sobbed in as close to silence as i could. and you know what i was told? to shut up. they told me "you're not the only one here, shut up. people are trying to sleep."
they are very kind there.
the next day i woke up and went to the in room dining, because i hadn't been cleared for lunch room dining yet. they fed us those breakfast patty things like from mcdonalds. with egg and a patty in like a biscuit. but much more greasy.
i told them i couldn't stomach this, because it was too greasy. and asked if i could have cereal and SKIM milk instead. i can't stomach 2%. they told me it wasn't greasy, that it was very healthy. i showed them a napkin i dabbed on it covered in grease. they told me "tough shit, no breakfast. you have to eat what we give you because you're not cleared for anything else."
remember, i was there for anorexia.
i didn't get breakfast.
about half an hour later they tried to get me to drink Ensure. i have a very sensitive gag reflex, i gag at just about everything. i can hardly eat yogurt with fruit in it because it's all chunky and disgusting. so i told them it wasn't going to work, they again told me "tough shit" but this time it was the Ensure or they force fed me. i stood right in front of them, took a sit, and choked.
they let me throw it away.
then at snake time they gave me a double dose, two bran muffins and a milk carton. 2%. i told them i can only drink skim. and you know what? THEY FINALLY GAVE IN.
i got skim.
i ate it with out any words.
i met with the dietitian and doctor then. they said i was cleared for lunch room dining, but if i skipped any meals i would have to go back to the in room dining. i had no complaints, i knew if i wanted out i had to play by their rules.
i was also prescribed Cymbalta and Seriquil. depression and anxiety medication. one is basically just to help me sleep.
it was dinner time now, and i shoveled down the disgusting greasy pasta like everyone else. except the other people seemed to /enjoy/ it. everyone was looking at me, i could hear them talk about me as i sat in my room and they had "free time" and it just annoyed me.
this day, the first day technically, i awoke feeling very nauseous. i gave credit to the grease. i ended up passing out on the floor walking to the lunch room for breakfast. they told me it was the medication, and it was, i still feel dizzy often on it. but i have only almost passed out one other time. and only because i missed a dose.
i socialized a lot, put on the biggest smile i could, and did everything and ate everything i was told to.
it was a terrible time, but no one could tell that i felt that way.
what got me through it the most was that i spent free time writing to my best and still my only real friend.
i love my Aoi~
the next day i had my room mates switched, from another girl named Samantha B to an anime nerd. i got along with her very well. it wasn't exactly the next day when she came, it was that night.
i woke up to the sound of a girl crying, i look over to the window and see a figure slumped under it balling her eyes out.
i thought it was the girl from the room next to me, it wasn't. it was a new girl.
she had also been dragged away from her mom- but she didn't even have a hissy fit when it happened. they just dragged her in there.
and you'll never guess what they did when they heard her crying.
they yelled at both of us to go to bed or she'd be tranquilized.
we went to bed. she tried her best to be quiet.
i was pretty much in with everyone by the second day. i acted like i was happy and during every therapy session i just said i wasn't depressed. because i wasn't i didn't feel upset, i didn't feel suicidal. just mad at my mom for sticking me there. like i said- i hadn't had unpleasant thoughts in months. and i still haven't. i just get a little upset every once in awhile. my mom thought i was depressed because i sit in my room 24/7 and never go out and i don't have any friends IRL and the only time i talked to her was when i was having drama with my ex-girlfriend and was all "i hate lifeeeee" which is understandable.
but i am not depressed, i am just BORED.
[sure i may have depression but i'm not depressed. make sense?]
later that day my mom came, and we talked, it's called a family session. we laughed and hugged like everything was normal. i told her the deets about what the drama was going down in the hospital. how i'd been hit on multiple times. how fucked up some of the people were. how bad i felt for them. how disappointed i was in this generation. and after that it was pretty much set in stone i was going home very soon- but i was really upset when it wasn't that day.
a boy had gotten released the day before, and he'd left me his phone number and AIM. i never contacted him when i left, i never would. he was a man whore and it really grossed me out.
anyway~ the day i left, the third day, i woke up really upset. thinking "i might actually be here for a week." but come lunch time i was leaving. it was over. i had been acting- and honestly felt- like nothing was wrong. the terms of my release was that i attend counseling and take my medication.
being admitted and released in 3 days is a pretty big feet, i think. most the people there were there for a week to four at a time.
SO FUCK YOU HOSPITAL.
:3333
when i went to the shrink she laughed, saying i didn't need anything. the only issue i had was not talking to my mother enough- and she was right. mom and i talked, and we're on a great level now. so i guess i'm glad that this experience gave me that.
she's my favorite mom, i wouldn't trade her for anything. even though she messes up sometimes. i do to.
no one is perfect.
basically, the people that were there that i got to know were like this.
one very young girl- who was given up by her parents because she was too difficult. an anorexic child with many behavioral problems. but the thing is, if you just let her do what she wanted she was fine. not like- let her beat people up, but let her bring her teddy bear with her, and give her attention when she wanted it she would be FINE. or if you just got her attention on something else than whatever she was doing wrong- totally fine. she was an absolute sweetheart. but she responded so bad to negative speak that the "experts" gave her that they had to move all of us to a separate room and tranquilize her. she was out for over 16 hours. i was very angry.
a typical "i'm so hxc" teenager. she's bi, she's dating a 20+ year old even though she's only 14, she's had sex, she's attempted suicide, she loves metal, and guess what?! she cuts her own hair~ black clothes, cut marks, what a wonderfully unique person she is. whenever i talked to her i wanted to smack her. she had no problems other than wanting to have problem. i hate people like her.
this one boy, i felt very bad for, he has a genetic problem where his body ages much faster than it should. he'll be dead by 30, because he ages so fast. he was only like 16, he could have been 20-30. he has a child, and works so hard to not be depressed. but he is. i felt so bad. he was so strong but not strong enough. :c
uhm, those were the only interesting people. the rest really kept to themselves or their problems were common ones that aren;t worth mentioning because i don't even remember them.
i must say, i miss the one girl who came in. she was just like me- in a way- not as pretty- but she and i were similar. i hope she got out soon. because all she did was make an empty threat to her mother to get her to understand her feelings were real.
idk i do it a lot, or i did. not anymore.
questions? ask.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
how /i/ lose weight
well, if you don't know already you're going to learn now. i am an anorexic. i lost nearly 50 pounds through anorexia my first time, gained 10, lost 10 like two or three times. and i want to lose 10 again.
i am 115.8LBs i would like to be 102. but i'll look at myself harshly at 108, and 106.
i only like some numbers so i have to be one of those three or i'll feel weird.
:3
back when i lost the most weight i ate up to 500 calories a day. sat on webcam all day and talked to people. played DDR and ate one weight waters diet meals a day. that was it.
and i did that for a long ass time. then i started losing weight really slowly because i stopped playing DDR and just starved, it took me so long to get to 106 and then every anorexics worst fear happened-
i was admitted to an inpatient mental hospital.
i gained 6 pounds there and have been losing and gaining for awhile now.
but never going below 108.
i desperately want to get back to where i was almost happy.
i wasn't skeletal but i wasn't perfectly flat yet either.
then in South Dakota i went from 110 to 115.8
and i'm going back to hardcore restricting until i get back down.
as you also know- my mom reads this. and it will scare her a lot. and i feel awful for scaring her. but this is my life, i don't want to live for anyone else. i just want me to be happy.
today i ate a yogurt, a mini bagel, watermelon, and two fruit cookies.
that totals in 360 calories.
[i had birthday cupcake but since it's birthday it doesn't actually count ;D]
and that's all i'm eating today.
i also had three bottles of water.
we'll see how much i weigh tomorrow.
i will also be walking my dog twice a day as soon as she moves to here.
if she does.
my mom is being really nice i love her so~
:3
i joined a pro-ana site to get tips and tricks on how these girls deal with hunger pains and i can honestly say i was disgusted by the majority of them.
80lbs?! at 5'7?! do you WANT to look like a stick?
no boy will ever touch you, because it will feel like cuddling a chair.
you'll never fit in clothes, you'll have to shop for custom made things because you'll have no curves.
and NO ONE will find you attractive except other people who are titched in the head.
i don't understand how these girls can see themselves that way. how they get that far down the path.
i am diagnosed with anorexia, but i don't see it as a disorder for myself. i choose how i am. i see myself realistically. i just am very harsh and judgmental and so what's "acceptable" for you isn't for me. i want a beautiful body. that's all.
i only have one life to live- i want to live it my way.
i hope you all do the same.
i plan on posting about how i really feel about ED's later on in the future. so stay tuned~
if you have questions for me just ask.
:3
calendar
oct ??? - GED testing
oct ??? - pedicure
oct ??? - leg waxing/facial
oct 6 - my birthday
oct 29 - Anime Convention youmacon
i am 115.8LBs i would like to be 102. but i'll look at myself harshly at 108, and 106.
i only like some numbers so i have to be one of those three or i'll feel weird.
:3
back when i lost the most weight i ate up to 500 calories a day. sat on webcam all day and talked to people. played DDR and ate one weight waters diet meals a day. that was it.
and i did that for a long ass time. then i started losing weight really slowly because i stopped playing DDR and just starved, it took me so long to get to 106 and then every anorexics worst fear happened-
i was admitted to an inpatient mental hospital.
i gained 6 pounds there and have been losing and gaining for awhile now.
but never going below 108.
i desperately want to get back to where i was almost happy.
i wasn't skeletal but i wasn't perfectly flat yet either.
then in South Dakota i went from 110 to 115.8
and i'm going back to hardcore restricting until i get back down.
as you also know- my mom reads this. and it will scare her a lot. and i feel awful for scaring her. but this is my life, i don't want to live for anyone else. i just want me to be happy.
today i ate a yogurt, a mini bagel, watermelon, and two fruit cookies.
that totals in 360 calories.
[i had birthday cupcake but since it's birthday it doesn't actually count ;D]
and that's all i'm eating today.
i also had three bottles of water.
we'll see how much i weigh tomorrow.
i will also be walking my dog twice a day as soon as she moves to here.
if she does.
my mom is being really nice i love her so~
:3
i joined a pro-ana site to get tips and tricks on how these girls deal with hunger pains and i can honestly say i was disgusted by the majority of them.
80lbs?! at 5'7?! do you WANT to look like a stick?
no boy will ever touch you, because it will feel like cuddling a chair.
you'll never fit in clothes, you'll have to shop for custom made things because you'll have no curves.
and NO ONE will find you attractive except other people who are titched in the head.
i don't understand how these girls can see themselves that way. how they get that far down the path.
i am diagnosed with anorexia, but i don't see it as a disorder for myself. i choose how i am. i see myself realistically. i just am very harsh and judgmental and so what's "acceptable" for you isn't for me. i want a beautiful body. that's all.
i only have one life to live- i want to live it my way.
i hope you all do the same.
i plan on posting about how i really feel about ED's later on in the future. so stay tuned~
if you have questions for me just ask.
:3
calendar
oct ??? - GED testing
oct ??? - pedicure
oct ??? - leg waxing/facial
oct 6 - my birthday
oct 29 - Anime Convention youmacon
Saturday, October 3, 2009
i was going to post about weight
but i got to depressed about my failures to lose so i'll just post my goal and then i'll talk about what i keep with me at all times.
i used to be 150lbs, then i lost so much weight that i was 106. now i'm 115. and i hate it~
i want to be 106 again, my body was almost pretty enough for my tastes.
so we'll see.
:3
anyway-
there is something every girl has no matter where you go. and if she doesn't have one... well she's just weird.
and i'm talking about~ a purse.
a bag.
a sack.
a backpack.
anything.
and they are usually HUGE AND HEAVY.
and what is in those bags you ask?
well i'll tell you what's in mine.
front left pocket : cellphone and DS
front right : iPod, keys, and digital camera
first big pocket : wallet, coin purse, tissues
back big pocket : makeup bag, pencil case, notebook, planner, contact case
i have a LOT of stuff.
and it's all important that i always have,
why?
i never know what i'll need.
i never know if i'll get stuck.
and i never know the future. obvi~
why do i need a notebook and a planner? because sometimes i get ideas for stories and i write.
and write.
and write.
or i need scrap paper to rip out.
plus it's cute.
:3
the thing that's hard, though, is big purse vs cute purse.
i found one that is both, a Tokidoki purse. it's wonderful.
but it is an over the shoulder, and i hate that!
but i deal because it's otherwise perfect.
:3
that's it really.
if you have questions just ask?
i used to be 150lbs, then i lost so much weight that i was 106. now i'm 115. and i hate it~
i want to be 106 again, my body was almost pretty enough for my tastes.
so we'll see.
:3
anyway-
there is something every girl has no matter where you go. and if she doesn't have one... well she's just weird.
and i'm talking about~ a purse.
a bag.
a sack.
a backpack.
anything.
and they are usually HUGE AND HEAVY.
and what is in those bags you ask?
well i'll tell you what's in mine.
front left pocket : cellphone and DS
front right : iPod, keys, and digital camera
first big pocket : wallet, coin purse, tissues
back big pocket : makeup bag, pencil case, notebook, planner, contact case
i have a LOT of stuff.
and it's all important that i always have,
why?
i never know what i'll need.
i never know if i'll get stuck.
and i never know the future. obvi~
why do i need a notebook and a planner? because sometimes i get ideas for stories and i write.
and write.
and write.
or i need scrap paper to rip out.
plus it's cute.
:3
the thing that's hard, though, is big purse vs cute purse.
i found one that is both, a Tokidoki purse. it's wonderful.
but it is an over the shoulder, and i hate that!
but i deal because it's otherwise perfect.
:3
that's it really.
if you have questions just ask?
Friday, October 2, 2009
selling used clothes, buying used clothes, buying clothes online
selling and buying used clothing is the best way to make money and spend wisely. as long as you buy from a trusted shop/person and the clothes aren't damaged no one will no they're used but you. because, let's face it, the second someone tries a shirt on at the store it's technically "used" so why pay as much as you have to in stores when it looks the same?
i sell my clothes to Plaito's Closest, simply because i don't know anywhere else to sell to. and they give me a good amount of money for what i'm selling- better than donating to Good Will at least~
i made 70$ today, selling clothes i would never wear IRL. only in South Dakota. and no one will ever see that me again, i swear it.
anyway, first you want to wash all your clothes, make sure they look as good as they can. if you see a major flaw- bring it anyway. you never know what they will or wont take. and if they don't take it at one point, bring it back in a few months. they might take it then. i just sold a pair of winter boots they didn't take early this summer, but now that winter is upon us they did take them.
and sometimes they miss a little wear and tear, so it's always good to bring it back and scam another 5-10$ into your wallet.
one of the pairs of pants i brought in was COVERED in super glue on the butt. but it wasn't visible, just hard where the glue is. they didn't notice. i got like 10$ for them. go me~
when buying clothes you want to make sure you want it. try it on. nothing will stretch or fade any more than it already looks usually. which is what makes it my favorite, you see it and it looks how it really will after you wash it. soooo good <33
but NEVER buy ANYTHING without trying it on first. it's just not worth it.
now i know what you must be thinking- "you can't try clothes on online" no, you can't, but sometimes you can't get what you want in stores. like me. i buy only online really. some things IRL but nothing much. shirts, jackets, but nothing i really like to wear.
when you buy clothes online you make sure the site is legit, how do you check for this? look at costumer feedback, most of the sites i use are suggested to me by people who have used it. so i know they're good.
if you want the sites i use just ask, i'll link you~
when you get the clothes do NOT cut the tags off. until you've tried them on and know they fit. you can return them and exchange sizes if the tags are still attached.
often times i just buy off eBay, and in the Lolita world this is a huge no-no. and i agree, defiantly do NOT buy Lolita clothes off eBay. worse than bodyline almost 100% of the time. but i buy visual kei inspired clothing, shoes, jewelry, etc off of eBay. Punk Rave is one of my favorite goth brands. and i have only ever found it on eBay. plus it's easy to find user reviews on there.
<3
i don't really know what else to say, feel free to ask questions. i have been buying offline and from eBay since i was 11.
:3
i sell my clothes to Plaito's Closest, simply because i don't know anywhere else to sell to. and they give me a good amount of money for what i'm selling- better than donating to Good Will at least~
i made 70$ today, selling clothes i would never wear IRL. only in South Dakota. and no one will ever see that me again, i swear it.
anyway, first you want to wash all your clothes, make sure they look as good as they can. if you see a major flaw- bring it anyway. you never know what they will or wont take. and if they don't take it at one point, bring it back in a few months. they might take it then. i just sold a pair of winter boots they didn't take early this summer, but now that winter is upon us they did take them.
and sometimes they miss a little wear and tear, so it's always good to bring it back and scam another 5-10$ into your wallet.
one of the pairs of pants i brought in was COVERED in super glue on the butt. but it wasn't visible, just hard where the glue is. they didn't notice. i got like 10$ for them. go me~
when buying clothes you want to make sure you want it. try it on. nothing will stretch or fade any more than it already looks usually. which is what makes it my favorite, you see it and it looks how it really will after you wash it. soooo good <33
but NEVER buy ANYTHING without trying it on first. it's just not worth it.
now i know what you must be thinking- "you can't try clothes on online" no, you can't, but sometimes you can't get what you want in stores. like me. i buy only online really. some things IRL but nothing much. shirts, jackets, but nothing i really like to wear.
when you buy clothes online you make sure the site is legit, how do you check for this? look at costumer feedback, most of the sites i use are suggested to me by people who have used it. so i know they're good.
if you want the sites i use just ask, i'll link you~
when you get the clothes do NOT cut the tags off. until you've tried them on and know they fit. you can return them and exchange sizes if the tags are still attached.
often times i just buy off eBay, and in the Lolita world this is a huge no-no. and i agree, defiantly do NOT buy Lolita clothes off eBay. worse than bodyline almost 100% of the time. but i buy visual kei inspired clothing, shoes, jewelry, etc off of eBay. Punk Rave is one of my favorite goth brands. and i have only ever found it on eBay. plus it's easy to find user reviews on there.
<3
i don't really know what else to say, feel free to ask questions. i have been buying offline and from eBay since i was 11.
:3
Thursday, October 1, 2009
acrylic nails
acrylic nails are most likely my favorite cosmetic application, they are beautiful and fun. and so so versatile. whatever you can imagine can be done, and whatever you want will be done. if you do to the right place.
so let's start with that- picking a salon.
i don't care how racist this is- Asian salons only. i have had white people do my nails, i've had asians do my nails, and honestly i have never seen a white salon with electric files. and you NEED electric files. so- the first thing you look for is asians.
next, pricing, today i got a fill, french tip, and design, it was 23$ do NOT pay more than 23$ for a fill and design.
they charge 15$ for a fill, 5$ for a french tip, and 5$ for design. but they love me so they only charged me 3$ for my design.
i don't know how much a full set is- i don't remember. i haven't gotten one in so long since i just get fills.
next you will look for friendly-ness, go during the rush and see if they smile and tell you they'll be with you in a minute, and if they're rude just leave.
try a few different salons, go to one and get a pedicure, go to another and get a manicure, go to another and get your eyebrows waxed. anything so you can find which salon suits you.
the one here at our mall, Woodland Mall in Grand Rapids, is shit. i hate it there.
i also hate the salon i went to in Mitchell. but the one in Ada, called Ada Nails, is my absolute favorite.
once you've found your salon NEVER CHEAT ON IT.
it's just wrong.
don't go to a new salon unless you absolutely have to. like if you're out of town for over 2-4 weeks. [i usually get my nails done every 2 weeks. but you can go up to 4.]
here are some FQA about acrylic nails
Are they damaging for your real nail?
no, not if cared for properly. meaning getting them re-done every 2-4 weeks. of course if you do take them off once put on your nail under where the acrylic nail will be weak and not very pretty. but it will grow back the exact same as it was.
Are they expensive?
not if you find a good salon, Asian salons honestly cost less as well. and have higher quality.
Can i do it myself?
i know a few people who do- i think it's fine. if you know how. you shouldn't practice on yourself, or on anyone else. get a dummy hand. and actually learn. they do LEGALLY have to go to school for this. it is difficult.
What's the difference between this and press on nails?
press on nails are shit- they are just glued to your nail and aren't shaped to your nail or strong at all.
How do you get acrylic nails? what's the process?
you start off with a white nail glued to the end of your nail. like a press on, but with super glue and only where your nail starts to grow white. they then cut it down to the length you want- followed by putting the acrylic or gel on top depending on what you want. they then shape it correctly to your nail, with an electric file. then they paint it.
Do electric files hurt?
no.
sometimes they do, but very rarely. and not very much.
Do acrylic nails hurt?
the first time you get them they will hurt a little bit, only around where your nail and skin meet. it's usually gone by the morning after you get them.
How long do they last?
forever.
they will stay on until you peel them off. if you take care of them that is. [they will fall off sometimes if you use your hands a lot]
you have to get them "filled" every 2-4 weeks. a fill is when they put more acrylic or gel between the first one and where it has grown. i get mine every 2 weeks because i hate seeing them grown out at all. but i have gone 4 weeks with only one nail falling off due to wear and tear.
UHHH
i can't think of any other questions people have asked me.
if you have one just ask in comments.
:3
here is my before and after of today's nails.
and here is my hair cut.
that's all for today.
so let's start with that- picking a salon.
i don't care how racist this is- Asian salons only. i have had white people do my nails, i've had asians do my nails, and honestly i have never seen a white salon with electric files. and you NEED electric files. so- the first thing you look for is asians.
next, pricing, today i got a fill, french tip, and design, it was 23$ do NOT pay more than 23$ for a fill and design.
they charge 15$ for a fill, 5$ for a french tip, and 5$ for design. but they love me so they only charged me 3$ for my design.
i don't know how much a full set is- i don't remember. i haven't gotten one in so long since i just get fills.
next you will look for friendly-ness, go during the rush and see if they smile and tell you they'll be with you in a minute, and if they're rude just leave.
try a few different salons, go to one and get a pedicure, go to another and get a manicure, go to another and get your eyebrows waxed. anything so you can find which salon suits you.
the one here at our mall, Woodland Mall in Grand Rapids, is shit. i hate it there.
i also hate the salon i went to in Mitchell. but the one in Ada, called Ada Nails, is my absolute favorite.
once you've found your salon NEVER CHEAT ON IT.
it's just wrong.
don't go to a new salon unless you absolutely have to. like if you're out of town for over 2-4 weeks. [i usually get my nails done every 2 weeks. but you can go up to 4.]
here are some FQA about acrylic nails
Are they damaging for your real nail?
no, not if cared for properly. meaning getting them re-done every 2-4 weeks. of course if you do take them off once put on your nail under where the acrylic nail will be weak and not very pretty. but it will grow back the exact same as it was.
Are they expensive?
not if you find a good salon, Asian salons honestly cost less as well. and have higher quality.
Can i do it myself?
i know a few people who do- i think it's fine. if you know how. you shouldn't practice on yourself, or on anyone else. get a dummy hand. and actually learn. they do LEGALLY have to go to school for this. it is difficult.
What's the difference between this and press on nails?
press on nails are shit- they are just glued to your nail and aren't shaped to your nail or strong at all.
How do you get acrylic nails? what's the process?
you start off with a white nail glued to the end of your nail. like a press on, but with super glue and only where your nail starts to grow white. they then cut it down to the length you want- followed by putting the acrylic or gel on top depending on what you want. they then shape it correctly to your nail, with an electric file. then they paint it.
Do electric files hurt?
no.
sometimes they do, but very rarely. and not very much.
Do acrylic nails hurt?
the first time you get them they will hurt a little bit, only around where your nail and skin meet. it's usually gone by the morning after you get them.
How long do they last?
forever.
they will stay on until you peel them off. if you take care of them that is. [they will fall off sometimes if you use your hands a lot]
you have to get them "filled" every 2-4 weeks. a fill is when they put more acrylic or gel between the first one and where it has grown. i get mine every 2 weeks because i hate seeing them grown out at all. but i have gone 4 weeks with only one nail falling off due to wear and tear.
UHHH
i can't think of any other questions people have asked me.
if you have one just ask in comments.
:3
here is my before and after of today's nails.
and here is my hair cut.
that's all for today.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
going blonde
going from brown to blonde is a difficult process, and costs quite a bit. where i go it is about 80$- i suggest you not do it yourself unless you know what you're doing. bleaching is very dangerous and can literally melt your hair, as well it can- and has for me- break off in your hand, comb, whatever.
you start off just with your terrible roots.
next the bleach is applied, be careful not to get on your clothes or in your eyes.
the bleach stays on for about 30 minutes- bring your DS or PSP or a book if you're lame.
:3
the bleach is rinsed and color applied, again it's time for your DS
and ta-da no more terrible roots!
i also got an angled cut, but it was 1am when i was finally done and relaxed. so i took out my weave and just went to bed.
i'll take real pictures of it eventually.
but not now, and i didn't yesterday.
:3
calendar
oct ??? - GED testing
oct 2 - my moms birthday
oct 6 - my birthday
oct 29 - Anime Convention youmacon
you start off just with your terrible roots.
next the bleach is applied, be careful not to get on your clothes or in your eyes.
the bleach stays on for about 30 minutes- bring your DS or PSP or a book if you're lame.
:3
the bleach is rinsed and color applied, again it's time for your DS
and ta-da no more terrible roots!
i also got an angled cut, but it was 1am when i was finally done and relaxed. so i took out my weave and just went to bed.
i'll take real pictures of it eventually.
but not now, and i didn't yesterday.
:3
calendar
oct ??? - GED testing
oct 2 - my moms birthday
oct 6 - my birthday
oct 29 - Anime Convention youmacon
how to make chocolate raspberry cheesecake
how to make Chocolate Raspberry Cheese Cake
Recipe
Cake
• 2 (3 ounce) packages cream cheese, softened
• 1 (14 ounce) can EAGLE BRAND® Sweetened Condensed Milk (NOT evaporated milk)
• 1 egg
• 3 tablespoons lemon juice from concentrate
• 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
• 1 cup fresh or frozen raspberries
• 1 (6 ounce) packaged graham cracker pie crust
•
Glaze
• 2 (1 ounce) squares semisweet chocolate
• 1/4 cup whipping cream
first off, you want to remove any jewelry. rings, bracelets, long necklaces. secondly wash your hands!
next you'll want to preheat your oven to 350, i do mine to 365 because mine runs cold. make sure you have an inside the oven thermometer because you can't trust what the ovens computer says!
bring your mixer out, i personally own a stand mixer so this is very easy for me, and place the SOFTENED cream cheese in. whip for about 10 minutes at a medium setting. or until it looks similar to marshmallow fluff.
to soften cream cheese put in microwave for 15-20 seconds on high
once finished slowly add condensed milk. i add about 1/2 then 1/4 then the final 1/4. again mix on medium setting.
i suggest you try the condensed milk, it's like pure sugar.
add 3 tablespoons of lemon juice, 1 teaspoon of vanilla extract, and one egg. mix well. i'd say a low setting.
as it's mixing i arranged the raspberries i used about 1 1/4 packed of 6oz packages, the recipe calls for 1 cup.
finally~ pour batter over raspberries slowly.
bake for 30-35 minutes or until set.
i had batter left over so i made two little cheese cake cakes. i baked them for 20 minutes at 350 as well.
DO NOT start glaze until AFTER cake is out of the oven and has been cooling for a long time or it is fully cooled. i wouldn't start until it is fully cooled.
in a small saucepan melt semi-sweet chocolate with whipping cream over low heat, cook and stir until thickened.
do not turn it up! low and slow is the way to go~
chill- and garnish and desired.
i know this is late- but you chill it over night so the glaze hardens.
take it out and garnish after about half an hour of chilling.
and then when i dropped it off at Sammy's house i ended up hanging out at her house for a lot of the night. then came home and went to sleep because i was so tired.
she said the cheesecake was delicious.
Recipe
Cake
• 2 (3 ounce) packages cream cheese, softened
• 1 (14 ounce) can EAGLE BRAND® Sweetened Condensed Milk (NOT evaporated milk)
• 1 egg
• 3 tablespoons lemon juice from concentrate
• 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
• 1 cup fresh or frozen raspberries
• 1 (6 ounce) packaged graham cracker pie crust
•
Glaze
• 2 (1 ounce) squares semisweet chocolate
• 1/4 cup whipping cream
first off, you want to remove any jewelry. rings, bracelets, long necklaces. secondly wash your hands!
next you'll want to preheat your oven to 350, i do mine to 365 because mine runs cold. make sure you have an inside the oven thermometer because you can't trust what the ovens computer says!
bring your mixer out, i personally own a stand mixer so this is very easy for me, and place the SOFTENED cream cheese in. whip for about 10 minutes at a medium setting. or until it looks similar to marshmallow fluff.
to soften cream cheese put in microwave for 15-20 seconds on high
once finished slowly add condensed milk. i add about 1/2 then 1/4 then the final 1/4. again mix on medium setting.
i suggest you try the condensed milk, it's like pure sugar.
add 3 tablespoons of lemon juice, 1 teaspoon of vanilla extract, and one egg. mix well. i'd say a low setting.
as it's mixing i arranged the raspberries i used about 1 1/4 packed of 6oz packages, the recipe calls for 1 cup.
finally~ pour batter over raspberries slowly.
bake for 30-35 minutes or until set.
i had batter left over so i made two little cheese cake cakes. i baked them for 20 minutes at 350 as well.
DO NOT start glaze until AFTER cake is out of the oven and has been cooling for a long time or it is fully cooled. i wouldn't start until it is fully cooled.
in a small saucepan melt semi-sweet chocolate with whipping cream over low heat, cook and stir until thickened.
do not turn it up! low and slow is the way to go~
chill- and garnish and desired.
i know this is late- but you chill it over night so the glaze hardens.
take it out and garnish after about half an hour of chilling.
and then when i dropped it off at Sammy's house i ended up hanging out at her house for a lot of the night. then came home and went to sleep because i was so tired.
she said the cheesecake was delicious.
Monday, September 28, 2009
ZOOM! teeth whitening
as seen on extreme makeover
:33
that is what i got today,
i have been self conscious about my teeth since... always.
even now after this i am wanting to go back for braces- you will understand in a moment when you see the pix.
before hand you want to brush/floss your teeth as well as you can. they do NOT clean your teeth before you get it unless you want to schedule and pay for that too.
and you also want to dress nicely. never go out without looking decent, you never know who you'll run in to.
i didn't run into anyone-
except a old lady in her 90s that liked my shoes.
B]
the proses is fairly simple, and not painful for me.
[though i have pain now. will explain later~]
they start by moisturizing your lips and putting a little sunscreen on your nose/around your mouth. followed by giving you true cotton mouth-
now i have never smoked weed, so i have never felt "cotton mouth" that way. but this cotton mouth wasn't so bad. it was a little dry but very easily bearable. i didn't mind it.
next they put liquid plastic on your gums, hiding any tissue that is not covered by the cotton.
they then harden it with a light to make it look like the above.
my mom was like "why do you want pix of this?" i was like "because it's important that i get laughed at >X"
i actually think i look pretty cool.
O w O
next they put a tooth conditioner on your teeth, followed by the whitening gel.
and then, finally, this has taken about an hour so far, you get the light.
it gets really hot but doesn't hurt. not for me at least. some people experience sensitivity during the proses.
for 15 i sat there with my arms in the air holding my iPod up so i could watch music videos,
then the light turns off and she takes off the whitening gel- reapplies the conditioner and gel- and the light is back on.
she repeats this one more time after the 15 minutes are up.
again another 15 minutes and i'm done~
i went up 7 shades, i am no longer a person with any shade of natural colored teeth.
before
after
[about me wanting braces, my front two teeth aren't perfectly straight anymore. i want it fixed]
i am very pleased.
you can see where my braces covered when i had them, but it should even out in the next few days.
another thing i am going to deal with for the next few days is- zingers.
a "zinger" is a jolt of pain that the cause is not really known. it just feels like a zap and then it is gone.
you don't know when it will come or why- it just does.
they said it should stop within the next couple of days.
or 4-6 hours.
it's not terrible.
but it does hurt.
:C
that's all- i will go bake my cake now and update later.
<33
:33
that is what i got today,
i have been self conscious about my teeth since... always.
even now after this i am wanting to go back for braces- you will understand in a moment when you see the pix.
before hand you want to brush/floss your teeth as well as you can. they do NOT clean your teeth before you get it unless you want to schedule and pay for that too.
and you also want to dress nicely. never go out without looking decent, you never know who you'll run in to.
i didn't run into anyone-
except a old lady in her 90s that liked my shoes.
B]
the proses is fairly simple, and not painful for me.
[though i have pain now. will explain later~]
they start by moisturizing your lips and putting a little sunscreen on your nose/around your mouth. followed by giving you true cotton mouth-
now i have never smoked weed, so i have never felt "cotton mouth" that way. but this cotton mouth wasn't so bad. it was a little dry but very easily bearable. i didn't mind it.
next they put liquid plastic on your gums, hiding any tissue that is not covered by the cotton.
they then harden it with a light to make it look like the above.
my mom was like "why do you want pix of this?" i was like "because it's important that i get laughed at >X"
i actually think i look pretty cool.
O w O
next they put a tooth conditioner on your teeth, followed by the whitening gel.
and then, finally, this has taken about an hour so far, you get the light.
it gets really hot but doesn't hurt. not for me at least. some people experience sensitivity during the proses.
for 15 i sat there with my arms in the air holding my iPod up so i could watch music videos,
then the light turns off and she takes off the whitening gel- reapplies the conditioner and gel- and the light is back on.
she repeats this one more time after the 15 minutes are up.
again another 15 minutes and i'm done~
i went up 7 shades, i am no longer a person with any shade of natural colored teeth.
before
after
[about me wanting braces, my front two teeth aren't perfectly straight anymore. i want it fixed]
i am very pleased.
you can see where my braces covered when i had them, but it should even out in the next few days.
another thing i am going to deal with for the next few days is- zingers.
a "zinger" is a jolt of pain that the cause is not really known. it just feels like a zap and then it is gone.
you don't know when it will come or why- it just does.
they said it should stop within the next couple of days.
or 4-6 hours.
it's not terrible.
but it does hurt.
:C
that's all- i will go bake my cake now and update later.
<33
road trips just aren't my thing -important info after calendar-
yesterday- i was on the road from 7:30am until 11:30pm
the reason i did not post then was because i spent the night in my old home with my dog, she lives at my dads house instead of my moms because my mom hates dogs.
but that's okay, it is a good house for her to be in. it will just be difficult to get used to because i wont be there 24/7.
:ccc
anyway, i am here to tell you why you should not go on road trips.
the only reason- ever- that a road trip should be done is if you have 5 or more people going on the trip. otherwise it is more expensive to drive. gas prices are sky high, obviously.
there is always going to be road construction somewhere on your road trip, you cannot avoid it. our trip was made about an hour longer because of "construction", even though there was nothing. no workers. just a closed lane. it was the most ridiculous thing ever. i don't ever want to drive more than 5 hours ever again.
ever.
i had planned on driving to LA- that's gone. not a chance. i'll take a train or fly.
BUT I MUST SAY~
driving is much worse than RIDING. when i was just sitting in the back seat it was very nice and relaxing. very pretty scenery. i enjoyed seeing so many things.
the best part was driving through Chicago, even though the traffic was awful. it just made me think how much i really want to live in NYC.
LA for four years, NYC for the rest of my life.
mom will live in Paris, i will live in NYC, what a wonderful life.
:33
calendar
sep 28 - teeth whitening [will post later today] / baking a chocolate raspberry cheese cake
sep 29 - going blonde
sep 30 - acrylic nails
oct ??? - GED testing
oct 2 - my moms birthday
oct 6 - my birthday
oct 29 - Anime Convention youmacon
i will try to post once a day, and once a day only.
on days that i do do more than one thing, like today since i am doing this and my teeth and my baking i will post multiple times.
and on days that i doing have anything planned i will just post whatever.
so there will never be a boring day.
:3
please follow and show your friends~
the reason i did not post then was because i spent the night in my old home with my dog, she lives at my dads house instead of my moms because my mom hates dogs.
but that's okay, it is a good house for her to be in. it will just be difficult to get used to because i wont be there 24/7.
:ccc
anyway, i am here to tell you why you should not go on road trips.
the only reason- ever- that a road trip should be done is if you have 5 or more people going on the trip. otherwise it is more expensive to drive. gas prices are sky high, obviously.
there is always going to be road construction somewhere on your road trip, you cannot avoid it. our trip was made about an hour longer because of "construction", even though there was nothing. no workers. just a closed lane. it was the most ridiculous thing ever. i don't ever want to drive more than 5 hours ever again.
ever.
i had planned on driving to LA- that's gone. not a chance. i'll take a train or fly.
BUT I MUST SAY~
driving is much worse than RIDING. when i was just sitting in the back seat it was very nice and relaxing. very pretty scenery. i enjoyed seeing so many things.
the best part was driving through Chicago, even though the traffic was awful. it just made me think how much i really want to live in NYC.
LA for four years, NYC for the rest of my life.
mom will live in Paris, i will live in NYC, what a wonderful life.
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calendar
sep 28 - teeth whitening [will post later today] / baking a chocolate raspberry cheese cake
sep 29 - going blonde
sep 30 - acrylic nails
oct ??? - GED testing
oct 2 - my moms birthday
oct 6 - my birthday
oct 29 - Anime Convention youmacon
i will try to post once a day, and once a day only.
on days that i do do more than one thing, like today since i am doing this and my teeth and my baking i will post multiple times.
and on days that i doing have anything planned i will just post whatever.
so there will never be a boring day.
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please follow and show your friends~
Saturday, September 26, 2009
how should i start? a new begining~
hello new followers, old, i am Charlotte.
and i am about to go to bed.
you may know me from Underdog to Wonderdog- or my trip to South Dakota and adulthood.
or you don't know me at all~
in that case, you will learn.
either way you're here so let me tell you about myself.
i am Charlotte, i am many different ethnicities. so call me a mutt.
i enjoy baking, and writing, and talking about myself, and playing dress up, and my dog, and blahblahblah
c:
i have fake nails, and fake hair, and fake eyes.
my philosophy is; "you only have one life, so live it how you want. not how you're told."
i am naturally black haired and brown eyed, with finger nails that grow awfully.
i changed that.
i also wear extensions from time to time, but i don't know if i will be for awhile.
in all my pictures i have them, though.
my best friend is the only human important to me, other than my mom.
and my doggie is most important as well, please follow her blog Underdog to Wonderdog at Ejotesnewlife.blogspot.com
she is shaggy now~
my upcoming calendar is~
going home - sep 27
teeth whitening//baking a cheese cake - sep 28
hair dye/cut - sep 29
birthday - oct 6th
GED testing - during oct
youmacon - oct 29th-nov 1st
i will post my calander at the end of every post, so you'll never miss what's coming up.
idk if i'll post everyday- because i'm pretty boring a lot of the time at home.
i don't have much a social life, or a job, or anything really.
we'll see
c:
and i am about to go to bed.
you may know me from Underdog to Wonderdog- or my trip to South Dakota and adulthood.
or you don't know me at all~
in that case, you will learn.
either way you're here so let me tell you about myself.
i am Charlotte, i am many different ethnicities. so call me a mutt.
i enjoy baking, and writing, and talking about myself, and playing dress up, and my dog, and blahblahblah
c:
i have fake nails, and fake hair, and fake eyes.
my philosophy is; "you only have one life, so live it how you want. not how you're told."
i am naturally black haired and brown eyed, with finger nails that grow awfully.
i changed that.
i also wear extensions from time to time, but i don't know if i will be for awhile.
in all my pictures i have them, though.
my best friend is the only human important to me, other than my mom.
and my doggie is most important as well, please follow her blog Underdog to Wonderdog at Ejotesnewlife.blogspot.com
she is shaggy now~
my upcoming calendar is~
going home - sep 27
teeth whitening//baking a cheese cake - sep 28
hair dye/cut - sep 29
birthday - oct 6th
GED testing - during oct
youmacon - oct 29th-nov 1st
i will post my calander at the end of every post, so you'll never miss what's coming up.
idk if i'll post everyday- because i'm pretty boring a lot of the time at home.
i don't have much a social life, or a job, or anything really.
we'll see
c:
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